The biggest lie we try to tell ourselfs is things will get better. NO no they don’t. There’s things in life you can change and things in life you cant control. If you’ve done all you can there’s no cosmic law that says the things you cant control will get better, they don’t and they don’t have to. There’s no God, there’s no fate, there’s no reason to anything. Everything is chaos there’s no reason for anything. Our molecules are just bouncing around at various speeds in random direction with no reason at all. Things don’t “get better” things just are how they are and if its out of your control to change then there’s no reason in this universe as to why it would change for you. Some cells for people who become shitty people sometimes those shitty people are more wealthy and more powerful than you and there’s nothing you can do about it. Sure you can work to become more wealthy and more powerful but there will always be shittier people who are wealthier and more powerful. Nothing changes you’re still the piece of shut you were before. Nothing gets better, it has no reason to. You can change the tilt of the earth and you cant force people to love you and shit doesn’t get better do stop lying to yourself.
I am ready to rip out my teeth I cannot live like this :(
My best friend is having a baby! Im super excited not just because shes having a baby but honestly I’ve always thought shed be a better mother than me. She already is too. Once her kid is a toddler maybe i can start learning from her? Im excited because i way a better peer role model? Does that make sense?
Teeth fucking suck